Monday, February 11, 2013 | 8:02 AM | 0 Atasinchi
Sometime I really wonder did I fail a job as a girlfriend.. It seem like I fail to be his girlfriend.. It seem like I don't understand that much.. Everything was like different .. Or isit we really falling apart ..Everything seem different already .. Everything seem to have change already .. Other people is quarrel makes them stronger yea we quarrel & did make our relationship stronger sometime but sometime also like everything change .. You change or our relationship change .. Well I hope both did not change .. I wish everything is still the same..Whenever you unhappy I not able to cheer you up but instead you act happy infront of me.. but actually deep in your heart you not .. I knew you not but you always tell me you are fine .. I really wish you are fine .. I wish I could know what you thinking .. I wish Im able to cheer you up .. I wish Im able to surprise you to make you even happy .. I wish .. But I always fail to do it .. So am I really a failure girlfriend .. ? Sometime being with him really make me feel super happy & special .. Just me & him and no one else .. Just like our own world .. That feeling is totally different & special .. Super comfortable being with him different from others.. With him I can be silly all I want , Act cute all I want blah blah blah !! Still rmb when he chasing me that feeling is like ....HAPPY ? I thought I wont fall in love with him but in the end I did .. & Not just fell in love with him but fell deeply in love with him .. I wish we can be happy all the time dont need quarrel blah blah .. Is always cuz of me that cause us to quarrel .. Cuz of me easily get jealous , petty , unhappy blah blah blah & MOOD SWING ! I gonna control myself for being mood swing easily so that we wont quarrel .. Everything is just cause of a small matter I quarrel .. hais .. Im like better nothing to do .. Feel so bad .. but whenever we quarrel we meet afterward & I see him I will feel guilty .. Cause I simply love him & dont want quarrel ..
I dislike him texting girl stuff like that (I know he wont text girl but girl text him ..) & I will feel insecure .. I dont know why but Im just like that .. Is like the girl may be prettier den me , skinnier den me , sexier den me blah blah .. (Insecure..) But he told me that he will love me forever & I trust him .. But still afraid :(
After seeing this I decided to give him some space & dont ask him alot of qns .. But sometime I just like to ask many qns uh how sia .. But trying to control still ! For our relationship sake I gonna control control ! & he stared to download alot off app .. (Control..) Even he like girl photo or ex status im still gonna control .. Other den control I got no other choice .. Why am I always insecure ..
Im gonna to have a cute relationship with him !Tmr is the 12th!
SuperGirl !
